AHHHHHHH!!!!

I have officially decided that my life is just…ugh. Chemistry is raping me, as usual. Studying…ish. Hanging in there, barely. Haha. That’s my life. College is supposed to be exciting and fun. Actually, it is. Sometimes. But other times, I’m swamped with work (papers, research, chemistry, etc), financial burdens, social issues, BROKEN COMPUTERS…and it’s annoying. But, you get through it.

Speaking of broken computers, my darling Mac baby (that is not so darling anymore) has finally decided to conk out. I don’t even know why I said “finally.” My laptop is so new that it’s still under warranty (and will continue to be under warranty for another 3 years). Sheesh. Way to be reliable, Mac. NOT. I’m so sad. My baby has done me well. For the most part. Stupid fan. WHY DID YOU HAVE TO BREAK?! Ugh. I don’t want to talk about it.

I digress. So, I’m bathing myself in hand sanitizer - yay swine flu - and drowning in chemistry. AND, to top it all off, my brain is filled with stupid things. Like this boy. Yeah, stupid things. Ugh. I shouldn’t be distracted from my studies with fantastical thoughts of being with this guy. Whose name shall not be disclosed. Because I said so. I don’t even know why I’m interested. He probably doesn’t even want to be my friend. He’s just talking to be nice. I’m so weird. AH! PITY FRIEND. He’s half Korean and half Russian. It’s so cool. IDK. There’s just something very appealing about his presence. I want to know him more. I want…I don’t even know what I want. I just don’t want him to not like me, you know? I’m obsessive. God, I’m rambling because I was initially using this post as a way to vent so I could study, but now I’m just using it to procrastinate. Again. Haha. Procrastination really does not end well, ever. It just results  in all-nighters. And those never end well (as we all know).

I’m going to study now. Not really. I’m probably going to just sit here and think about what’s-his-face…and then fail out of college.

GOD

- Victoria

…stop obsessing. Seriously.